I Overreacted Again!
I really miss my working life when I was in “Heaven”. For the past two months, I hardly sit down and relax, or even stop by just to have some chit chatting session and gossiping. My working condition in Retail is so “overwhelming” until it is ruining my own personal life. What’s going on with me? Am I overjoyed? Am I overexcited? Nose bleeding again last night is definitely an indicator to me that my STRESS level is up to the maximum now!
I’m an extreme worrier (not warrior). WORRIER. I am a person who can easily get worried and nervous even a small thing. That’s why I don’t like to keep my work pending, it will add on to my tasks the next day. Meaning to say, MORE WORRIES for the next day! I tend to have the working attitude to move, work and settle it fast. I can’t tolerate when other slumber people standing on my way and delay my work, but then again it’s team work, what more can I do besides “begging” them nicely and explaining clearly? Patience, all I need is patience! Anyway, if start talking about clients that I deal with, I’ll lose my appetite.
Lately I am riding emotions roller coaster. At one time I’ll be very happy, another time I’ll be very grumpy, angry or sad! There goes all my victims due to work side effects especially the particular person. The way he is treating me making me feel he’s such an insensitive person. I thought he is gentleman and caring, but on the other way round, he doesn’t really bother even if I’m dead by now!
I was so eager to talk to him, to share my thoughts with him everyday on what’s happening, keep him updated because I’m seeking for comfort, cares and ears to listen. I want him to understand my situation here so that he will comfort me, in return I’m expecting him to let me to do the same thing too. But sadly to say, he hardly reply my sms or return my call. He did call once in a while, but every call was always in a hurry.
“I’ll talk to you tomorrow ok?” or “I’ll call you later ok?”
“That’s it?”
“I got to go ok?”
“OK, AS YOU LIKE”
“My boss is here” or “I’ll talk to you tomorrow ok?”
“AS YOU LIKE! BYE!”
After I cool myself down whenever I acted like that, I realize that actually I was overreacted again. It has been many times such incidents happened, in fact I did apologize. Somehow, both of us never change our attitude knowing that we don’t like it. I don’t like him being insensitive and not caring, and I believe he doesn’t like me being so hot tempered and harsh on him.
Am I to be blamed? Is it my fault? My ego is not that high, no problem for me to give in and apologize at all. In fact I always do that. Of course by giving in doesn’t mean I accept it as it is. I am anticipating some changes from my actions taken to prove that what I have done is fruitful, else another explosion session from me! I know, I know, I’m just being too much! I am overreacting!
But in nutshell, well, being a Virgo, I have high expectations on everything, including a person like him.
I’m an extreme worrier (not warrior). WORRIER. I am a person who can easily get worried and nervous even a small thing. That’s why I don’t like to keep my work pending, it will add on to my tasks the next day. Meaning to say, MORE WORRIES for the next day! I tend to have the working attitude to move, work and settle it fast. I can’t tolerate when other slumber people standing on my way and delay my work, but then again it’s team work, what more can I do besides “begging” them nicely and explaining clearly? Patience, all I need is patience! Anyway, if start talking about clients that I deal with, I’ll lose my appetite.
Lately I am riding emotions roller coaster. At one time I’ll be very happy, another time I’ll be very grumpy, angry or sad! There goes all my victims due to work side effects especially the particular person. The way he is treating me making me feel he’s such an insensitive person. I thought he is gentleman and caring, but on the other way round, he doesn’t really bother even if I’m dead by now!
I was so eager to talk to him, to share my thoughts with him everyday on what’s happening, keep him updated because I’m seeking for comfort, cares and ears to listen. I want him to understand my situation here so that he will comfort me, in return I’m expecting him to let me to do the same thing too. But sadly to say, he hardly reply my sms or return my call. He did call once in a while, but every call was always in a hurry.
“I’ll talk to you tomorrow ok?” or “I’ll call you later ok?”
“That’s it?”
“I got to go ok?”
“OK, AS YOU LIKE”
“My boss is here” or “I’ll talk to you tomorrow ok?”
“AS YOU LIKE! BYE!”
After I cool myself down whenever I acted like that, I realize that actually I was overreacted again. It has been many times such incidents happened, in fact I did apologize. Somehow, both of us never change our attitude knowing that we don’t like it. I don’t like him being insensitive and not caring, and I believe he doesn’t like me being so hot tempered and harsh on him.
Am I to be blamed? Is it my fault? My ego is not that high, no problem for me to give in and apologize at all. In fact I always do that. Of course by giving in doesn’t mean I accept it as it is. I am anticipating some changes from my actions taken to prove that what I have done is fruitful, else another explosion session from me! I know, I know, I’m just being too much! I am overreacting!
But in nutshell, well, being a Virgo, I have high expectations on everything, including a person like him.
posted by sesame seed @ 8:47 pm
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