What a Week….
Buy A, or buy B or C?? Or don’t buy at all?? I’m such an indecisive person when it comes to make firm decision on buying things, let alone buying a car!! I’m not car expert at all, and how do I know who’s comments and remarks are reliable?? At a point of time, I was really thinking about B, then suddenly I thought A is more worthy. After that, I got so confused and fed up. When come to calculate the installment and expenses, I finally put a stand on my decision and said it out loud in my heart, OK THAT’S FINAL! BUY A! Consequences: another 6 months of tremendous torture!
Monday was the first day I had to struggle alone in the office, looking through all the emails cc to me, and all the papers and notes on my table to follow up. I felt like tearing myself apart into pieces and hit my head on the monitor. New message alerts kept popping out and I started to have phobia of opening the emails because I knew the clients were up to no good! More emails means more new work! But I was looking forward for the day to end and go back to have some rest and sleep. I couldn’t wait for the next day to come!
Tuesday was public holiday and I had made appointment with Pauline! What to do if I have no transport? She’s the only one I can ask for help to go around town! And I was so happy when she agreed to meet up for my two big missions – book the car and buy dresses for sis’s wedding as her bride’s maid. We had our dim sum brunch at 11.30am and headed to the car dealer to book my black car A. I test drove the car with Pauline sitting at the co-driver seat and the salesman talking non stop behind. At last minute I found out that the car’s pickup was not fast and when I parked the car, I saw the unpleasant spot! I’m very particular with the entertainment while driving, especially long hour drive, I used to blast my brother’s car speaker throughout the journey. It seemed to me Car A’s audio system and player were not up to my expectation, be it the design, outlook or the functionality! I am not blind, am I? Why are the buttons all so big? Suddenly my little voice asked me, “Do you still want to buy the car today, now? Or you want to go back and consider???” No, I should not hesitate anymore. How long more do I want to think about it and opt for other choices? I should go ahead without thinking twice! Be firm! I signed the paper and made my pocket a big hole. That’s just the beginning of my expensive living journey! Oh great, more worries from now on, not that soon though. I have to wait for at least 6 months to have a better live! Still, I have to go through torture to trouble myself taking public transport to come back to my home sweet home every week. It’s not a pleasant experience to waste 4 hours to and fro for a trip that you can easily reach by just 1 hour and 20 minutes, and I have to do it for another 48 times or more, nothing lesser! Oh god! Counting the days go by!
Yes, I saw the white long dress! I felt like I wanted to buy it right away, but by looking at the price, I held back. Maybe I should look for more options before I made my decision. We headed to the plaza that I applied my job before, got myself a pink skirt without a top yet. At 5pm, Anne met up with us and 3 hours of chit chatting session gone so fast without realizing. Rushed back to the boutique and bought the white dress before it closed at 9pm. We got all items discounted 20% or more because of the membership given to me upon purchase of RM200 or above. Late dinner time, tasted Chinese Tom Yam fried rice for the first time and as what I told Ainie and Karn, it’s been long time I never eat out Chinese food that often ever since I started working in JB.
After staying in JB for such a long period, adapting to the new working environment in my current company is hard! It’s weird for me to say so because I’m a Chinese and most of the staffs in the company are Chinese! Hahaha…. I had culture shock when everyone speak mandarin with me, eat Chinese food only, sing Chinese songs, and listen to Chinese radio station! Just first week in Penang, I realized I have spoken way too much of Mandarin in two years time! I was not used to speak in Mandarin already and find it hard to find the right words or phrase to express myself and thoughts to them. Anyhow, they are friendly and funny colleagues. No matter what, they can’t replace what I had in JB. Sigh… miss everyone over there…. It was great to hang out with Fab5 every night and talk about everything under the sun. I will never find such feelings back with these new colleagues. They are not my peers but my seniors. Sometimes, it’s hard for me to blend in to their topic about their kids, or husbands, or wives or fiancé. I am not up to that stage yet, neither do I commit to any relationship. They are not the GOLF club member that I signed up years ago. Sigh…. It’s just soooooo way different……
Tough days went by so fast, each day I faced new challenges, but I’m glad that at least I am proud to say that I’m a fast learner! I can’t absorb all yet, but I’m picking up! I hope I’ll find the joy from the job that I’m having. People told me Penang is great and a fun place to stay, but what defines GREAT depends on the group of people that I mix with over there! I might have heard a lot about Penang, but I never think that it’s a great place to stay because how great it is to work till late night daily and lock myself in my bedroom throughout the night until the weekend comes to travel back home with so much of hassles? I thought I have a lot of friends, but when in need of accompaniment, I realized true friends are very hard to find! Very hard….. Sigh…I lie myself on the bed, listen to the radio that has been with me without fail since year 2000, staring at the ceiling till I fall asleep every night….. I feel miserable, lonely and sad…. but this is the road I chose and there is no turning back….
As I don’t have internet access on my pc, I never have chance to browse my beloved blogs like what I used to do last time in previous company. Every time I come back, the first thing I anticipate is to go online and read Karn’s blog, check emails and friendster, obviously the rest of the bloggers are pretty much hibernating. Thursday afternoon, we went to nearby foodcourt to have lunch and normally after that, my colleagues will buy food for high tea session. I passed by the newspaper stall and I was very shocked to see the headline on Star Newspaper “The No-Go Bridge”!!! The pictures looked so familiar! It’s the causeway bridge!!! What???? Isn’t it half way constructed? Abandoned the construction?? It’s such a waste of money! What a shame on carrying out the project when the other party never agreed on connecting the bridge! I still remember I asked Aini before near the checkpoint, “I thought that country disagreed to build the new bridge? Why did our country still build it?” The first thing went through my mind while staring at the headline was that day of news outbreak supposed to be May’s first day working in the bridge construction contractor company! What will happen to her??? Will she lose her job?? Gosh, she had tendered her letter last month…. I scared to offend her if sms her straight away, but I was worrying about her condition. However, last night I sent sms to her to ask about her new job, she didn’t reply at all. I wonder what’s wrong….
Friday, the fussy client came to pay a visit again. I served her nicely like she’s the queen of the century, carrying her laptop and accept all her comments but that was what I had to do in order to provide the best customer service to her. I never failed to be the great hypocrite, and I did it again whenever I deal with my clients. Mom suddenly called at 1.30pm and she asked “Have you taken your lunch?” while crying. I was shocked and worried, “Ya, taken my lunch at 12 to 1pm. What’s wrong with you huh?” “Nothing la, I just miss your dad. He used to call you during lunch time and ask you this question” There was a strong hit to my heart and I miss dad badly too, but I couldn’t cry in front of her. It will make her worse…. There were so much things to do and I felt so reluctant to leave the office, even thought of going back the next morning if I’ll be staying late in the office. But based on that situation, no matter what I had to leave the office to rush for the bus in the evening. Luckily my colleague fetched me to jetty on her way back home at 7pm. While sitting on the ferry, I thought of dad and tears rolling down thinking about his everything…. Once I reached Butterworth, I had to queue up to take the bus for 45 minutes! By the time I reached Pekan Rabu, it’s already 10.30pm. Mom was standing behind the bus stop waiting for me anxiously. “Pa, I just reach home”
Monday was the first day I had to struggle alone in the office, looking through all the emails cc to me, and all the papers and notes on my table to follow up. I felt like tearing myself apart into pieces and hit my head on the monitor. New message alerts kept popping out and I started to have phobia of opening the emails because I knew the clients were up to no good! More emails means more new work! But I was looking forward for the day to end and go back to have some rest and sleep. I couldn’t wait for the next day to come!
Tuesday was public holiday and I had made appointment with Pauline! What to do if I have no transport? She’s the only one I can ask for help to go around town! And I was so happy when she agreed to meet up for my two big missions – book the car and buy dresses for sis’s wedding as her bride’s maid. We had our dim sum brunch at 11.30am and headed to the car dealer to book my black car A. I test drove the car with Pauline sitting at the co-driver seat and the salesman talking non stop behind. At last minute I found out that the car’s pickup was not fast and when I parked the car, I saw the unpleasant spot! I’m very particular with the entertainment while driving, especially long hour drive, I used to blast my brother’s car speaker throughout the journey. It seemed to me Car A’s audio system and player were not up to my expectation, be it the design, outlook or the functionality! I am not blind, am I? Why are the buttons all so big? Suddenly my little voice asked me, “Do you still want to buy the car today, now? Or you want to go back and consider???” No, I should not hesitate anymore. How long more do I want to think about it and opt for other choices? I should go ahead without thinking twice! Be firm! I signed the paper and made my pocket a big hole. That’s just the beginning of my expensive living journey! Oh great, more worries from now on, not that soon though. I have to wait for at least 6 months to have a better live! Still, I have to go through torture to trouble myself taking public transport to come back to my home sweet home every week. It’s not a pleasant experience to waste 4 hours to and fro for a trip that you can easily reach by just 1 hour and 20 minutes, and I have to do it for another 48 times or more, nothing lesser! Oh god! Counting the days go by!
Yes, I saw the white long dress! I felt like I wanted to buy it right away, but by looking at the price, I held back. Maybe I should look for more options before I made my decision. We headed to the plaza that I applied my job before, got myself a pink skirt without a top yet. At 5pm, Anne met up with us and 3 hours of chit chatting session gone so fast without realizing. Rushed back to the boutique and bought the white dress before it closed at 9pm. We got all items discounted 20% or more because of the membership given to me upon purchase of RM200 or above. Late dinner time, tasted Chinese Tom Yam fried rice for the first time and as what I told Ainie and Karn, it’s been long time I never eat out Chinese food that often ever since I started working in JB.
After staying in JB for such a long period, adapting to the new working environment in my current company is hard! It’s weird for me to say so because I’m a Chinese and most of the staffs in the company are Chinese! Hahaha…. I had culture shock when everyone speak mandarin with me, eat Chinese food only, sing Chinese songs, and listen to Chinese radio station! Just first week in Penang, I realized I have spoken way too much of Mandarin in two years time! I was not used to speak in Mandarin already and find it hard to find the right words or phrase to express myself and thoughts to them. Anyhow, they are friendly and funny colleagues. No matter what, they can’t replace what I had in JB. Sigh… miss everyone over there…. It was great to hang out with Fab5 every night and talk about everything under the sun. I will never find such feelings back with these new colleagues. They are not my peers but my seniors. Sometimes, it’s hard for me to blend in to their topic about their kids, or husbands, or wives or fiancé. I am not up to that stage yet, neither do I commit to any relationship. They are not the GOLF club member that I signed up years ago. Sigh…. It’s just soooooo way different……
Tough days went by so fast, each day I faced new challenges, but I’m glad that at least I am proud to say that I’m a fast learner! I can’t absorb all yet, but I’m picking up! I hope I’ll find the joy from the job that I’m having. People told me Penang is great and a fun place to stay, but what defines GREAT depends on the group of people that I mix with over there! I might have heard a lot about Penang, but I never think that it’s a great place to stay because how great it is to work till late night daily and lock myself in my bedroom throughout the night until the weekend comes to travel back home with so much of hassles? I thought I have a lot of friends, but when in need of accompaniment, I realized true friends are very hard to find! Very hard….. Sigh…I lie myself on the bed, listen to the radio that has been with me without fail since year 2000, staring at the ceiling till I fall asleep every night….. I feel miserable, lonely and sad…. but this is the road I chose and there is no turning back….
As I don’t have internet access on my pc, I never have chance to browse my beloved blogs like what I used to do last time in previous company. Every time I come back, the first thing I anticipate is to go online and read Karn’s blog, check emails and friendster, obviously the rest of the bloggers are pretty much hibernating. Thursday afternoon, we went to nearby foodcourt to have lunch and normally after that, my colleagues will buy food for high tea session. I passed by the newspaper stall and I was very shocked to see the headline on Star Newspaper “The No-Go Bridge”!!! The pictures looked so familiar! It’s the causeway bridge!!! What???? Isn’t it half way constructed? Abandoned the construction?? It’s such a waste of money! What a shame on carrying out the project when the other party never agreed on connecting the bridge! I still remember I asked Aini before near the checkpoint, “I thought that country disagreed to build the new bridge? Why did our country still build it?” The first thing went through my mind while staring at the headline was that day of news outbreak supposed to be May’s first day working in the bridge construction contractor company! What will happen to her??? Will she lose her job?? Gosh, she had tendered her letter last month…. I scared to offend her if sms her straight away, but I was worrying about her condition. However, last night I sent sms to her to ask about her new job, she didn’t reply at all. I wonder what’s wrong….
Friday, the fussy client came to pay a visit again. I served her nicely like she’s the queen of the century, carrying her laptop and accept all her comments but that was what I had to do in order to provide the best customer service to her. I never failed to be the great hypocrite, and I did it again whenever I deal with my clients. Mom suddenly called at 1.30pm and she asked “Have you taken your lunch?” while crying. I was shocked and worried, “Ya, taken my lunch at 12 to 1pm. What’s wrong with you huh?” “Nothing la, I just miss your dad. He used to call you during lunch time and ask you this question” There was a strong hit to my heart and I miss dad badly too, but I couldn’t cry in front of her. It will make her worse…. There were so much things to do and I felt so reluctant to leave the office, even thought of going back the next morning if I’ll be staying late in the office. But based on that situation, no matter what I had to leave the office to rush for the bus in the evening. Luckily my colleague fetched me to jetty on her way back home at 7pm. While sitting on the ferry, I thought of dad and tears rolling down thinking about his everything…. Once I reached Butterworth, I had to queue up to take the bus for 45 minutes! By the time I reached Pekan Rabu, it’s already 10.30pm. Mom was standing behind the bus stop waiting for me anxiously. “Pa, I just reach home”
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