Emotional Breakdown Day......
This Sunday was like heaven to my department with absentee of FA. Everyone was taking a big break and having fun in the office. Gon was just one of them. Whole morning he was singing songs wherever he went either in the office, pantry room, reception counter or locker room. What funny was the song he sang “Cium di pipi ku Mas Coko” something, I couldn’t get the meaning but it sounded weird and humorous! As majority started to “berfikir”, he headed to locker room accompanied by songs. Soon after about 20 to 30 minutes, my office turned to be like a library. Quiet….
I couldn’t wait to share the funny incidents when Wad came back. Then to test if what I predicted is true, I came out with an idea which turned my day upside down! I walked slowly to male’s locker room, the door was unlocked and the room was dark. I pushed it slowly and to my surprise, he was in his dreamland behind the door. The scene was exactly like the classic joke about “Darlie”. I rushed out from the room with laughter.
A few minutes later, safety boot step sound was approaching my table. He stopped at the turning point for about 30 to 40 seconds and he rushed out and kicked at the cabinet! “BANG” and hit at the cupboard “PANG” with his angry face. I was so shocked and frightened. Then I connected the incident with my actions, I was the last person to see him :O :O Could it be me????
“Is it me?? Is it because of me??”
Throughout the whole day, I didn’t speak to him and tried to avoid him. I heard him laughing in the pantry room and yet when he bumped into me, he would ignore me and passed by. It made me feel even worse for what I did to him. I felt extremely guilty and bad for my actions and I thought he was still angry with me. I apologized through sms to him and yet didn’t get any reply from him. I couldn’t stop thinking about what I did and few hours later he replied saying that he should be the one who apologized to me with his kiddo action and scared to sms me because he thought I might not “layan” him.
After a few sms with him, I broke down to cry simply because it triggered my sadness hidden inside. I was sad for being alone here and this incident making me feel I was back to square one again. I was down when I first transferred to GH as I had no friends here and it is such a strange place to me. It made me feel like I started a new job like I used to be. I tried hard to mix around with my colleagues in GH and suddenly I felt I was alone again when close colleagues ignored me.
I couldn’t stop crying even after he called up to say thousands of sorry. It wasn’t his fault to make me feel that way. I had to overcome my emotion.
The next day Monday, he came in to the office bowing and apologizing. However, I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to break the ice until the evening, he approached me again explaining about the whole incident. Both of us tried to avoid eye contact and I could see his eyes were reddish already.
What’s going on with us just because of some small matter? Sigh….
I couldn’t wait to share the funny incidents when Wad came back. Then to test if what I predicted is true, I came out with an idea which turned my day upside down! I walked slowly to male’s locker room, the door was unlocked and the room was dark. I pushed it slowly and to my surprise, he was in his dreamland behind the door. The scene was exactly like the classic joke about “Darlie”. I rushed out from the room with laughter.
A few minutes later, safety boot step sound was approaching my table. He stopped at the turning point for about 30 to 40 seconds and he rushed out and kicked at the cabinet! “BANG” and hit at the cupboard “PANG” with his angry face. I was so shocked and frightened. Then I connected the incident with my actions, I was the last person to see him :O :O Could it be me????
“Is it me?? Is it because of me??”
Throughout the whole day, I didn’t speak to him and tried to avoid him. I heard him laughing in the pantry room and yet when he bumped into me, he would ignore me and passed by. It made me feel even worse for what I did to him. I felt extremely guilty and bad for my actions and I thought he was still angry with me. I apologized through sms to him and yet didn’t get any reply from him. I couldn’t stop thinking about what I did and few hours later he replied saying that he should be the one who apologized to me with his kiddo action and scared to sms me because he thought I might not “layan” him.
After a few sms with him, I broke down to cry simply because it triggered my sadness hidden inside. I was sad for being alone here and this incident making me feel I was back to square one again. I was down when I first transferred to GH as I had no friends here and it is such a strange place to me. It made me feel like I started a new job like I used to be. I tried hard to mix around with my colleagues in GH and suddenly I felt I was alone again when close colleagues ignored me.
I couldn’t stop crying even after he called up to say thousands of sorry. It wasn’t his fault to make me feel that way. I had to overcome my emotion.
The next day Monday, he came in to the office bowing and apologizing. However, I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to break the ice until the evening, he approached me again explaining about the whole incident. Both of us tried to avoid eye contact and I could see his eyes were reddish already.
What’s going on with us just because of some small matter? Sigh….
posted by sesame seed @ 9:30 pm
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